today was much much better, i was still very nervous this morning but talking to other people made me feel much better. knowing that someone else feels the same way makes you realise that not everything is going to be perfect when your learning something new. 
 but i was paired with someone else today and he taught me lots of stuff and he was super chatty, but he was a bit weird.. i was much happier even if it wasn’t anything overly excited. 

fingers crossed that tomorrow is much the same! :) 

i dunno how i feel yet about clinical, i felt so uncomfortable like i didn’t know enough and that people didn’t want to be around.. 
im not whinging, i just felt so out of my depth, yeah i could take vital signs, but i was just taking them off a monitor really and not really doing much. i did talk to some lovely old men and that was good and i have no problem communicating. 
i dont even feel like i want to go back.. i feel like a nuisance and unable.. (and deep down i know im not, its just that i need to take more time and get settled in) 

i really just want to see my boyfriend :( i just have to think that its only a week.. only 4 more days left 

super super anxious about clinical tomorrow :S
i don’t think i will sleep well tonight  

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